Just when I thought God had turned His phone to Silent Mode, I am reminded that it was me myself who got my surroundings too noisy and unable to hear my own phone ringing. Yea… many times, God speaks in a soft gentle whisper.
Thus far, 26 days into January of 2010, and an apparently less than happy new year, it’s actually not too bad. As I count my blessings, it’s not even bad. God is good…
A few things…
I was at the verge at screaming at God, 6th months already in solitude Slim River. WHAT? I am jaded, unmotivated, alone, bored, sick and tired. What…? I wanted answers from God, and I know I need to humbly seek Him. I began REHAB, or fasting. With a broken and contrite heart, I continue to seek Him…
God, You there?
Towards mid January, I got a phone call. Hospital Ipoh OS Department invited me back. In my heart, it was excitement + uncertainty. The vacancy was immediate. Unfortunately, my release isn’t. I only informed a handful of people because I wouldn’t want to get any hopes too high. I made the necessary phone calls and submitted the proper documents. There was a moment, I had the Whatever mentality… but as I ponder upon it, I want it. I want OS, I’d like to be in Ipoh. Whatever sounds terribly ungrateful. So, thank You Lord, may Your will be done. Not mine, but Yours =)
Then I was toying with the thoughts of getting ad-hoc dental part time jobs. For experiences and to kill time. Yes, I am late compared to my colleagues 😉 but it’s OK. Thoughts remained thoughts, and God knows I got a lazy bum. I never visited any clinics or called any boss for job offers. Not a single one.
One day, a clinic called and asked ‘Would you be interested to work in my clinic? Just cover for 1 or 2… or 3 days, according to what you can.’ On the phone I was playing cool and courteous, tho in my head Ngek ngek … shouldn’t I be the one to CALL YOU?? I thank God, for this is His work.
Monday, Wednesday, Monday, Wednesday… The constant Slim River Outpatients Warrior. Yours truly. Chronic Mondayitis is developing. Tiring…. but it’s still positively managable, until the boredom of hanging on, seeps in too. It was like, week after week of endless extractions, it seems like the teeth of the people tak habis-habis perlu CABUT. On 20 Jan, after seeing 30 patients non-stop in 3 hours, I crashed in front of the clinic’s PC, went into Facebook (don’t laugh), found Vern who happened to be online and I said…
‘I need a BREEAAAAAAKKkkKKK !! Like a holiday!!’
It was just a random rant. Again, God, it must be God (bless Him) showed me that I matter… The very same afternoon, HQ called to inform me that I should go to a 4-days Induction Course beginning 23rd. Very short notice indeed. YAY !!!~ because it’s going to be a mini gathering. More on this later.
The meaning and purpose of life, I seriously began to understand and appreciate, hung tightly upon relationships. The Cross is made up of the horizontal and vertical components. That’s God and people. People color my daily life. No people, no life… Therefore, sometimes i. m. robot.
That day, 22nd January, Nurul, age 5, came by my clinic again.
She looked around, quietly came to me and asked ‘Is the Dr still around?’
I told her ‘The Dr is gone la…’ Some staffs laughed.
Nurul looked relieved a bit.
She, of all people in my clinic, fearlessly took the seat across my desk and talked to me in children lingo which I can only understand about 40%.
Her mom was so embarrassed and quickly dragged her out. Nurul would run back into my office again. And I invited her to draw on my whiteboard.
She accidentally drew on the wall too =.=
People brings cheer to one’s life.
Speaking of people, the last weekend was a people weekend. Induction course, Teluk batik Resort, Lumut. About 15 of my ex-classmates were there, hailed from Perak, Penang and Kedah. As always, Inductions are saturated with boring lectures. Then again, we were put into nice hotels and free meals. Best of all, we get to hang around, hang out, laughed and chilled like the good old times. Chingku commented that we were like dental students again. Coz during lectures, people were sleeping, passing messages, playing iPhones/ PSPs, chatting, etc. Not eating alone is so much fun. We even went into the pool and played Captain Ball. The reunion wasn’t complete without a few rounds of Killer Game. Seeing them again is a great boost to my current situation. I haven’t spoken so much mandarin and cantonese since January. All the fun and cheer, the all expenses paid holidays 😉
I just came back today. I miss them already, but we’ll meet again.
Friends. People. Thank You, Lord.
More please =)